So much has happened since we've last spoken... where do I start? How about where I left off last time?
So I'm trying to forget about that whole fiasco last week. It was just an emotional week for me, and I didn't think I could handle it. But I talked to my dad, and in his demented idea of advice, helped me a lot. He basically said that I've been through ten times worse and gotten through it a stronger person, and after coming this far how could i even think about giving up? And I had to think about that... When I thought I wasn't going to be able to come to New York I cried like a baby, I thought my life was over. But here I am, and I'm having second thoughts? It was just an emotional period and I'm beyond over it!
One thing that really helped me was going to Central Park with a friend of mine. I saw how beautiful everything was around me and I knew in my heart that this is where I belong. There's nowhere on Earth I'd rather be than studying acting in New York City. My childhood dream has come true, now where do I go from here?
I think I'm extremely blessed to have the friends that I have. They support me in everything that I do, and because of them I really feel at home here. It's funny that after only a month (barely) I've grown so close to this group of people, we have our own little inside jokes (hence the title) and our own little traditions!
It's hard being away from home, but theres a certain sense of freedom that makes you want to stay. Yeah, we're broke and the only thing in the fridge is a jar of queso, some nutella and half a bottle of milk...but we're here! We're doing what so many people cannot...following our dreams! Now lets see where they take us. :)
~*kisses*~
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
All in a Week...
Last week was the worst week I could ever have imagined. Let me tell you what happened from the beginning;
So, to begin with, I broke my glasses about two weeks ago, so I've been walking around with broken glasses (don't judge, it gives them character :P). At first it was just a crack along the upper right-hand side of the right lens. Then, that crack finally broke apart and the lens was literally snapped in two. That happened towards the middle of last week. Skipping a few days now, Tuesday I auditioned for my first show! I was so excited (even though I knew I wasn't getting cast, it was a great experience), but I completely wasn't prepared to get cut off half way through my monologue, I was pretty disappointed, but I got over it. After that, I lost my key. I used my key (which is attached to the keychain on my wallet, meaning I lost my entire wallet) to get into my room Tuesday night, my roommates had a bunch of friends over. I went and got some ice-cream and did some homework, and right as I was getting ready to leave out to my friends room, I couldn't find my key.
This was after everyone had left already, and I freaked out! I know I used that key to come in the room, and it's not like it's just a single key, it's a whole wallet! So now, my school ID, metro card, debit card, food card, house key, mail-box key, and cash is GONE! I've looked everywhere and it is literally nowhere to be found! And every time I enter the dorms or the school without my ID, I'm supposed to get charged. FML. It's not like I can just get a new ID, house key, and mailbox key... that would cost me $80 total. And all of my money was in my wallet. Go figure. So I have to knock to get into my own room, and I can't buy food without my ID which has my meal plan on it. And did I mention I have no cash?
Alright, so Thursday I'm feeling so overwhelmed with everything that I can't handle it. And it's not just the wallet thing. It's the fact that every one of my friends is extremely talented. They can all sing, dance, play the piano or all three! I feel so out of place here. I want to be able to go out to see plays with them, but I know I don't have the money to do that, and it's embarrassing. Also, if not for my friends, I'd be practically starving. I can't buy myself food with no money and no meal-plan. Then, I'm tired of being lonely. I'm seeing so many relationships built, and I want one of them to be me, but no... it doesn't work out that way. And on top of everything I was home-sick. At first it was fine, but seeing my friends go home on weekends made me feel like shit. I wish I could go home for the weekend, and be with my family, but I can't... they live on the opposite side of the country. So I called my mom and told her I didn't like it here and I wanted to go home. I was an emotional wreck.
Here comes the fun part. Friday night, after I told my mom I was fine, and was just going through a phase of home-sickness, my friends and I went to an NYU frat party! I got FUBAR! (f*cked up beyond all recognition) I puked soo much it was crazy, and I don't remember the majority of the night. But according to everyone else, I spilt my guts about a huge crush I have on one of my friends, and that's why I kept drinking. Because I was upset that he met someone at the party, and it wasn't me. And I told him all of that... I'm not sure if he remembers it (I sure don't), he probably does, and just isn't saying anything about it. Why do I do this to myself?
So here I am drunk out of my mind, falling off the ladder to my bed, and what do I do, but puke in my dorm room, and on my roommates blanket. The next day, the room smelled like someone died. I cleaned it up, and washed the bedding. I'm sure my roommates hated me. Then, I went to watch "Remember Me"... a really good movie.. but it was horrible :P
And that was my week. FML.
~*kisses*~
So, to begin with, I broke my glasses about two weeks ago, so I've been walking around with broken glasses (don't judge, it gives them character :P). At first it was just a crack along the upper right-hand side of the right lens. Then, that crack finally broke apart and the lens was literally snapped in two. That happened towards the middle of last week. Skipping a few days now, Tuesday I auditioned for my first show! I was so excited (even though I knew I wasn't getting cast, it was a great experience), but I completely wasn't prepared to get cut off half way through my monologue, I was pretty disappointed, but I got over it. After that, I lost my key. I used my key (which is attached to the keychain on my wallet, meaning I lost my entire wallet) to get into my room Tuesday night, my roommates had a bunch of friends over. I went and got some ice-cream and did some homework, and right as I was getting ready to leave out to my friends room, I couldn't find my key.
This was after everyone had left already, and I freaked out! I know I used that key to come in the room, and it's not like it's just a single key, it's a whole wallet! So now, my school ID, metro card, debit card, food card, house key, mail-box key, and cash is GONE! I've looked everywhere and it is literally nowhere to be found! And every time I enter the dorms or the school without my ID, I'm supposed to get charged. FML. It's not like I can just get a new ID, house key, and mailbox key... that would cost me $80 total. And all of my money was in my wallet. Go figure. So I have to knock to get into my own room, and I can't buy food without my ID which has my meal plan on it. And did I mention I have no cash?
Alright, so Thursday I'm feeling so overwhelmed with everything that I can't handle it. And it's not just the wallet thing. It's the fact that every one of my friends is extremely talented. They can all sing, dance, play the piano or all three! I feel so out of place here. I want to be able to go out to see plays with them, but I know I don't have the money to do that, and it's embarrassing. Also, if not for my friends, I'd be practically starving. I can't buy myself food with no money and no meal-plan. Then, I'm tired of being lonely. I'm seeing so many relationships built, and I want one of them to be me, but no... it doesn't work out that way. And on top of everything I was home-sick. At first it was fine, but seeing my friends go home on weekends made me feel like shit. I wish I could go home for the weekend, and be with my family, but I can't... they live on the opposite side of the country. So I called my mom and told her I didn't like it here and I wanted to go home. I was an emotional wreck.
Here comes the fun part. Friday night, after I told my mom I was fine, and was just going through a phase of home-sickness, my friends and I went to an NYU frat party! I got FUBAR! (f*cked up beyond all recognition) I puked soo much it was crazy, and I don't remember the majority of the night. But according to everyone else, I spilt my guts about a huge crush I have on one of my friends, and that's why I kept drinking. Because I was upset that he met someone at the party, and it wasn't me. And I told him all of that... I'm not sure if he remembers it (I sure don't), he probably does, and just isn't saying anything about it. Why do I do this to myself?
So here I am drunk out of my mind, falling off the ladder to my bed, and what do I do, but puke in my dorm room, and on my roommates blanket. The next day, the room smelled like someone died. I cleaned it up, and washed the bedding. I'm sure my roommates hated me. Then, I went to watch "Remember Me"... a really good movie.. but it was horrible :P
And that was my week. FML.
~*kisses*~
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Whats new in the life of Me???!
Wow, it's my second week of classes and everything is going great. So let me catch you guyz up on my life so far... I partied like hell my first week here, then after classes started it seemed like there were a shit-load of fail nights! Even though last weekend (another fail night) I had a ball! I hung out with the crew and one of my friends almost chopped her toe off... (who the f-word wears sandals in New York City at 2am??) lmfao! It was soo scary though! I almost passed out from all the blood :P
Then another night, I went out to Central Park with another friend of mine. On the way there, we stopped inside of the apple store and omgee it was friggin HUGE! I love it there!... Now, I know what you're thinking; Why the hell are we going to central park in the middle of the night? We're actors, we take risks!! Actually we were just bored... so here we are walking through the park, and we're jumping at every noise, and paranoid beyond reason, it's hilarious! But then we found our way back to the fountain and we lied on the ground staring up at the buildings and the sky and just thinking about how truly blessed we are to be in this city.
O_o another interesting thing, I"m auditioning for my first college show tonight!! I'm not nervous like I thought I would be, Im super excited though! And let me tell you, when everyoen tells you that college is hard work...listen to them! there's noone to remind you to do your homework, and you have to put yourself on a reliable schedule..just make sure you stay focused, its alot to do, but you have plenty of time to get it done!!
~*~kisses~*~
Then another night, I went out to Central Park with another friend of mine. On the way there, we stopped inside of the apple store and omgee it was friggin HUGE! I love it there!... Now, I know what you're thinking; Why the hell are we going to central park in the middle of the night? We're actors, we take risks!! Actually we were just bored... so here we are walking through the park, and we're jumping at every noise, and paranoid beyond reason, it's hilarious! But then we found our way back to the fountain and we lied on the ground staring up at the buildings and the sky and just thinking about how truly blessed we are to be in this city.
O_o another interesting thing, I"m auditioning for my first college show tonight!! I'm not nervous like I thought I would be, Im super excited though! And let me tell you, when everyoen tells you that college is hard work...listen to them! there's noone to remind you to do your homework, and you have to put yourself on a reliable schedule..just make sure you stay focused, its alot to do, but you have plenty of time to get it done!!
~*~kisses~*~
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
College in the City
Image via WikipediaA couple days ago I saw "Next to Normal" on Broadway with a good friend of mine. It was AMAZING! I can't wait to go see more broadway shows and hang out in Central Park and get cursed out by random cab drivers, and ride the subway, and go clubbing, and meet cute boys (it seems like they're all gay! lol) and eat good food, and...shall I continue?! So incase you didn't notice, theres EVERYTHING to do in this city!
So today was my first day of classes and I loved it! Even though Tuesdays are my busy days... acting 10-11:20, Economy, soiety and the state 5:50-7:10, and First Year Mentoring 7:15- 8:35 ugh :-P, but it was a great experience, and I love my classes. My biggest class so far is 17 people (the benefits of a small liberal arts college) and my books seem pretty cheap!
Sorry it's been forever guyz, but I promise to update more often!!
~*kisses*~
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