Dear Me..

Dear me,

You disgust me.
You forgot me.
How could you forget me?!
All that I've done for you, all that I do,
And you FORGET me??
When you were down I pulled you back up!
When you were lost I gave you a compass.
When you wanted to give up I wouldn't let you!
And this is how you repay me??

There was once a time when I was the most important person in your life.
Then you met God.
And he took my place.
He told you that he came first, and I came second.
He tried to change you.
He told you that I was wrong for you.
He tried to make you forget me.
He put lies in your head and you hid me.
More like hid from me.
But you came back around.
You found room for both of us.
And for the first time in your life, you were happy.

I HELPED you!
When the world spit in your face I was there.
When your parents tried to break you, I was there. Me!!
And now you've forgotten.

This isn't the end of us.
I know in my heart that you will remember me. That you will come back for me.
Until then, take this letter and hold it close to your heart.
Try to remember what we fought for together.
Try to remember what you saw in me, it's still there.

I'm dying without you.
Please hurry...

eM evoL I

I love me.

I may bruise or cut myself
I may look in the mirror and dislike what I see
I may regret the decisions I've made
I may cry myself to sleep or beat myself up for my failure,

But at the end of the day, this is me. And I love me. I love every inch, every curve (or lack thereof)
I love my brown skin and my big beautiful brown eyes
I love my creative spirit which shows in everything I do
I love the way I sing in the shower
I love the way I dance in the rain
I love when my heart hurts, because it is at those moments that I'm most sure I have a heart.

I love my hands, my feet, my nipples, my thighs, my fingers, my toes, my ass, my knees
I love my penis, my arms, my shoulders, my lips, my ears, my hair, my head, my nose
I love that I suck my thumb every now and then
I love that I'm afraid of the dark at times
I love that I can put a smile on almost anyones face.

I love that I am me and noone else

I love checking to see if my deodorant has worn off,
I love that I get turned on so easily
I love the way I put words together
I love my life and everything about it.

It may not be the life I planned, or the life I wanted, but it's MY life. . and I'M living it.

I'm perfect in every way possible.

And FUCK anyone who says otherwise.

~*Love&Light*~